When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

-Fix you, Coldplay

The Hyderabad chapter 2

Work : A well defined dream- hazy at times, but becoming clearer by the day.
Fun : A part of life. And work. Which makes it more fun.
Labmates : Exceptional - Much more than what I expected.
Climate : Romantic.
Romance : Non-existent, so don't raise your eyebrows. Not yet.
Passion : Newly discovered,mind you. Bikes.
Addiction: Caffiene. Cheese. Loads of it :)
Song : Iris.
Movie(s) : Before sunrise, Before sunset.
Food : Cadbury's temptations - Rum and raisins :)
Mood : Strawberry swing. Swinging wildly as ever.
Life : work.
What I want : A long bike ride in the rain.
What I get : A day-long baby sitting session. Two kids, all the more fun. No complaints :)
What I miss : Quality time with family. Beex.
Wishlist : An extention of stay in CCMB. Or rephrasing it, anything to keep me away from college. Anybody who can get me that will be promptly rewarded.
Biggest worry: Getting back to college.
Looking forward to : My last few weeks in CCMB. Meeting my friends when I get back to hostel. Why can't I go to hostel without going to college? WHY? :|
Overall rating : An all time high. 8 on 10. :)

The one?

You are the one I want to be with
When I'm feeling low or high
You are the one I want to hold onto
When I feel the need to fly

You are the only one I can talk to
with no restraints, with you I'm me
You make me happy with a hint of a smile
You make me want to be free

I want to protect you
from the evils in the world
Your face, so calm and serene
a sight that is now seldom seen

So pure is your heart
untouched by the woes of hurt
I want to hold you close and tell you
that like you, there are very few

No complications,no twisted words
with inner meaning, no lies.
So simple life seems with you
When you're around time flies.

What makes you the only one
who knows how to make me laugh?
Who will make me face life again
If not for you? I ask.

Your careless gesture
A cry for affection
Your tiny little fingers
Holding on, not letting go.

What more do I want?
Just this. For you to know,
that
I love you more than I can show.

Dedicated to my brother's 2 year old son.

Yet another sad set of lines. Sigh. This should stop

Life thrown away
a world that refuses to show the way

Tears held back
how many times? can't keep track

Jokes to avoid reality
while wallowing in self pity

Music hurts
ideas get blurred

A smile to a friend
it's so easy to pretend

Mind-%$#^ed
and running out of luck

A happy song
a need to belong

Days pass by
seems like years, don't know why

A phone conversation
solace,mind on vacation

A long bike ride
just the wind,nothing to hide

The rain on my face
thoughts can you erase?

legs itching to dance
but mind still in a trance

An empty stare
all beyond repair?

The Hyderabad chapter 1

I landed in hyderabad a couple of days back, and I took a flight after a really really long time, and to make it short, it was an exhilarating experience. For the first time, I could actually feel the change in pressure in my ears and appreciate the beauty of the Eustachian tube. Anyway, I started work the next day. Not WORK work, but those who know me will know that, so yeah, I like calling it work, cuz I'm paid for it! :) The whole environment is so serene and sanctimonious. Everybody's religion seems to be the result they're waiting for, the excitement in waiting to find out if what they theorized was true. And for someone for whom practical experience has been questionable till now, just seeing all those labs and people actually doing some important work is an experience by itself. That's pretty much what I've been doing the two days I was at work. Reading, learning, clearing doubts with knowledgable people, people whom I thought would be at a level where they wouldn't tolerate stupid questions from someone like me. It's amazing, the way everybody gels in a lab as big as the one I'm in. I actually went for lunch with two senior scientists and one junior scientist on my first day. I still can't believe how casual the whole thing was. Well, I now lunch with a different group, but the first day experience is something that's still not sunk in, and one I'll cherish for a long long time. The PhD and postdoc students are very friendly, all ready to help me out whenever they get the time. It's been amazing so far, and I hope it remains like this throughout. I don't know if I'm going to be doing what they're doing now in a few years, but I do know that these two months will probably help me decide. probably. sigh. Well, drastic mood change. So that's it for this post!

Iris and Irony

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause i know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I dont want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you cannot fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I dont want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I dont want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Catharsis

Knowingly or unknowingly, a very unlikely person made me happy today. I rediscovered my ability to put mokka. To talk freely without any restrictions. To say lol and actually laugh out loud. Thought it got buried in all the emotional and psychological turmoil. If you ever read this, thank you. You know who you are. Or you might not. But i still think it's appropriate for me to thank you. You don't know how much it meant to me.